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Windows Live Spaces



Windows Live Spaces (WLSpaces for short) is Microsoft's Social Networking platform. The site was launched in early December 2004 as MSN Spaces, with the aim of allowing its users to reach out to others by publishing their thoughts, photos and interests. With this goal, Windows Live Spaces finds itself competing with similar services like MySpace, Bebo and Yahoo!'s 360°.
(The definition of WL Spaces is from Wikipedia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MSN_Spaces )

Example of a ML Spaces

One of the biggest advantages of WL Spaces was the free tool “Power Toy”, for Windows Live Spaces users "PowerToys" are allows for greater customisation of an individual's Space. The "Windows Media Player" PowerToy gives users the ability to play and display music and videos on their Windows Live Space. The "Tweak UI" PowerToy gives users the flexibility to alter the style, color and transparency of certain aspects of a Windows Live Space, while the "Custom HTML" PowerToy grants users the ability to call a small amount of hand-written HTML code (a feature that is often used for displaying banners and other graphics).
(Information above is from Wikipedia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MSN_Spaces)

As all other blogs, WL Spaces created a wide stage where everyone can freely publish their thoughts, or personal life. However, because WL Spaces is available for every Windows Live Messenger, also the tool “Power Toy” allows user to create their Spaces with more personality in it. Therefore, WL Spaces made it self a more convenient blog then others.


Sample WL Spaces:

J.LAWの感官世界
http://spaces.msn.com/jlaw1982/




The publisher J.Law


Is a popular spaces created by a male Chinese. He use to tell stories about his own life, he had wary well written stories about his father, his mother, his memories about his grand father and the stories of his ex-partner.
This blog has been operated for one year, the average commons is around 500, and there are several reasons why this blog is popular.
First, the publisher is a good looking female. With the celebrity news influences, a handsome guy wines more attention. Therefore, a handsome guy’s blog would be more popular then others.
Second, this publisher is adept in writing. Those stories he wrote are more like a novel while read it. So, there is a group of visitors are coming for his stories.
Last, though his diary, he made know to the public that he is homosexual. “Homosexual” is still a sensitive topic in Chinese society, with less knowledge, people would be more curious, hence, the popularity of this blog would increases directly.

Here is one diary he wrote in English which talks about him and his partner.

“十一月二十四日*增
(11/24/2006 added)
Baby,
"Ten days, missing approached crazily
Other worry, loves you is my ideal
My existence meant you cannot be lonely
Waits for me, accompanies you to go to sleep..."



Everybody,
"Love is not true and unreal
Only, own and lose
Believe in trueness owning please ."

With the sensitive Homosexual topic, this blog could be see as a stage where shows the life of a homosexual, it presents more information to the public and helps society to understand this group of population.

In addition, because blog is place where users have more freedom of speech of their opinion, and their personal life, therefore, it is a great medium for the whole world population to see more and know more about our world, as well as to understand more about each other.

grow up~ (and my high-heels :P )

I wrote this diary before my 20th birthday:

18.07.2006
Avril Lavigne's getting married
Saw this news today, so I found all her album directly and listen to them one by one. She uses to be one of my favorite singers.

I think I do believe "fall in love at first site", for a person, and for songs.
I just love her music incorrigibly, and attracted by this girl, who always look like a little warrior and attracted by her songs.

well, now this little warrior take off her little helmet and armor, made herself beautiful blond hair, put on her high-heels, married her prince with a pleased smile on her face.

The little girl has grown up.

I am growing up.

Say goodbye to those candy-colored hairpin,
Say goodbye to Barbie doll,
More lace skirt coming into her wardrobe,
More high-heels coming into her room,
The little girl growing up,
She would never again wears those huge T-shirt and playing basketball with boys,
Even though she still misses those days when she could laugh out loud and do not have to care about anything.

She use to like a little warrior too,
Defending her freedoms with the little weapon holding in her hand,
Argue with mum for coming home late,
Plying basketball tuff like a boy
Skip piano lesson in a Saturday afternoon playing volleyball with friends...
However, those willful days has now gone.
The little girl's gown up
She had a pair of magic heels, the first time put them on she could never take them off .

(my heels ^^~ I love them^^~)

photo

I remember I do not like taken photo before, I have always thought that I look ugly in the photo.

At the beginning of 2005, I moved from Gosford to the city, left all my old friend and lost contact with most of them. I am a kind of person who use to kept old friendship in mind, so, I felt sad every time when I thought about those friend, I haven’t took any photo with them....

If I can see my entire friend frequently, how good will that be. Well, we all know that is impossible.

Therefore, I start taken photo with my new friends. When we go out tighter, when we at school, when we on the bus...
Those photo became a little note book of mine, it has all my memories of my friends and me in it.
When I look at them, I remembered every moments when we together, those sweet, sweet memories^^

My 20th birthday, dad bought me a new camera, and then I would always carry it with me.

(my OLYMPUS camera ^^)

I use my camera to catch any moment I see and record my feelings at that moment when I see the view~



Those photos have now become part of my memories, when I see them, I can see what I saw at that moment, and I can feel how I felt when I took them...


(a yellow flower I took in Guang Zhou, dad said this photo is quite good^^ my parents went Guang Zhou with me and we travelled for two days, then we went to the airport together, they fly back home, and I’m came to Sydney )



(A raining day, I was on the train, a boring day for me, but I really like the photo:P)



(One night, before I put cream on my face, I found it was a 'hart' shape on my finger, ha~ ^^)



(One day, no my way home from the library, I saw this older couple holding each other's hand~ I felt so sweet ^^)



(Sunset from my city apartment window~ pretty ^^)


i think, by the time I’m too old and even unable to walk, I still have those photos I took, I can still see what I saw , and feel how I felt at the moment when I took the photo, at that time, I would have a cup of tea, with a smile on my wrinkled face and enjoy it. oh~ I can shire those happy and sad memories with my old husband too, and my son, my daughter, my grand son, my grand daughter, my grand-grand son...

sweet~~~

my bad luck period -_____-''

It seems like at every end of each semester, there would be some thing bad happen, that would gives more presser and makes me more stretch from all those assessments -_____-

Semester1.

Few weeks before this semester ended, my computer crashes, and that just two days before a presentation for Julia, so I have to skip one day from school and find a place to fix my computer. Therefore, I back home around 10pm, had little things to eat, and then prepare my presentation from 12pm until the next morning... then went straight to school and presented my presentation...

Semester 2.

2 weeks before this semester ended, my landlord told me that I have to move out because she's going to ask agent to take her house because she will go back to China, so if I still want to live there, I have to take the retire house from the agent. At the same time, I already bought my airplane ticket to go back home for holiday. Therefore, I asked a friend to left all my stuff in her place wile I am going back China.

There was two days before I left Sydney and I still haven’t finish the Newsletter assessment for Donna, so I have to spend a whole night to finish it, the next morning I went out and printed it out. After that, I back home and spend 40-minute pack up, another 1 hour to move all my stuff to my friend’s house. then came back 'home'( I only have my computer and a suit case which I’m taking back to china with me left in there), because I still have to finish the on-line newsletter and a logbook for Donna, so I stayed another whole night to finish it.

My bad luck was not gone yet.

It was a raining Friday morning, I finished my assessment for Donna, had a shower and ready to go. However, I could not order a taxi, I tried four taxi companies, unfortunately, and all the lines were busy. At that moment, I only have 2 dollars left on my phone.
Anyhow, it was a happy ending story, my housemate helped me called the taxi (we found the yellow page and called all the taxi companies one by one), and she said on her way to school, she could give it to Joyce (I called Joyce and she told me that she could hand it in for me).

- The end- o~ now I can berth...

Semester 3.

In this semester, bad things didn't coming together like the previous semester, before Christmas holiday, I was keep lost my stuffs, I lost 2 USB drive in 3 weeks, lost a bracelets at school, then a week later lost another bracelets which was a birthday gift from Maggie...
For the entire thing I lost above, it is all-ok, the most scary stuff I lost (no, the computer lost it) was my pod casting assessment, all the sound we recorded was gone in on second. Therefore, Maggie and I have to spend another extra week to do it all again...

ok, here comes, there is only a very few day left for this semester, so I wish, I just wish and i can only wish that every thing would gone smoothly...

my home town's new look~

My hometown Zheng Zhou is a 3,600 years old city; it is the capital city of central China's Henan Province.
Well, I am not going to talk about the history of my hometown, what I am going to show here is the new look of it.

I went home around September 2006, dad took me to the new construct east part of the city, I was astounded by the changes of my home town~

The local government decided to construct a new city on the eastern side of the new city; it would be a 150-km2 city. It has six different areas so people can live, work and enjoy in the new city.

There is also a manufactured river though the new city and this river can be use as the natural river to transports goods.

those are photos i took


this is the CBD region


this is the exhibition center

there is only the cery center area of the new city, rest of the city are still constructing.

I'm so proud of my hometown, every time I go back home I would see huge changes in the original city, and now, the new city is on built, I’m so looking forward of the future of my hometown.

New Year Eve Fire Works ^___^

31.12.2006


I’m going to see the famous Sydney New Year Eve Fire Works today~

We (Maggie, Mao Mao, and other friends) bought lot of food drinks and few big tows (with Australian flag on them^^) and start waiting for the New Year Eve Fire Works from 3pm~ such a long waiting~~ never realize there are so many people in Sydney ~ha



we took this little boy with us too~
Poppy on Abby's legs ^^
"emmm~~ comfortable ~hummmm"




I was always feel touched when I see fire works~
They like flowers blossom and sparkles in the sky

The beginning of 2006, the night at the Chinese New Year Eve, dad took me and mum to the countryside to fire small fire works. they were like two teenager~ laugh, running, fire those fire works together~ I was scared to fire those small fire works so I could only stand there and watch them and the fire works ha~

Fire works are always beautiful~ I make wishes every time when I watching fire works ~
I heart a story about fire works "if you want angles hear your wishes, you should fire works, and make a wish before it's gone, that way, angle's attention would be attracted by the fire works, so your wish would come true."

I do not know if the story tells the truth or it is just a story, but anyhow I believed in it.

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 ....
Happy new year~




There were too much going on in my life at the end of 2006, but at that moment, all I can see is the splendid fire works...
Still, I made the same wish that I always make.

At the end of 2006, I’m holding M's hand, with tears on my eyes, until the time changes to 2007~

It will be a beautiful year~~

paint ball

7.01.2007

Went play (shoot) paint ball haha^__^

Weak up early in the morning~ put on my running shoes, with other 14 friends drove over 2 hours to shoot paint ball.

Under the special; cloth ewe putted on, everyone looked funny~
After staff explained rules to us, the game begins~~

We separated into two teams, and if you shoot be one ball, then your game is over, the winner is the team with more people left alive.

I was the first person been shot and shoot on my head~~~~~~ I died right after the first game begin~ -________-''

After the 1st game, Abby tried her best and she was the only savvier in the 3ed game ~~ hahahahahahaha ^0^

The most important thing I have to remind everyone who wants to go shooting paint ball is it does hurt a looooot!! So batter go during winter time and wear lot of cloth~
You do not believe that.
See, this is one photo taken by one of my friend after the shooting day~

That is his arm, and the marks take 2 to 3 weeks to disappear.......


Even though it's hearts a lot, we still had soo much fun during the shooting ~ ha

doggie~~ ^____^

29.12.2006

I went BBQ with friends and two beautiful dogs^^

I always want a dog, but I was live in apartment in China so mum said we can’t have one, then I came to Australian, to have a dog is too expensive then I could afford, sooo

This is the picture of those two handsome boys

cloudy



poppy



? what they looking at?



hahaha ~ me and cloudy



maggie and poppy



Cloudy:

Age: 6 month
Hair color: whit, gray and tinny bit of black
Interests: running, pee on all the trees while he is in that era (sometimes pee on people's leg -___-' ), sex/beautiful girls (less cloth is batter)


Poppy:
Age: 8 weeks
Hire color: coffee color
Interests: sleeping (on beautiful girl tummy)


Had soo much fun that day, especially with those two dogs.
I was running with Cloudy, few minute later, it became Cloudy pulling me to run -___-

Poppy is the star every time he go out, every one just come up surround him saying " oh, his so quite" or " oh, his so small" -___- and taking photos with him ~ what a star^^

thank you Dad ^^

Well at the beginning of 2007 (not very beginning be still the beginning), I want first say thank you to my father ~ my lovely father.

Dad is the only male who care and loves most in the world~

I remember I use to have lot of fun with dad when I was little, he use to make my hair look beautiful and toke me to the park every weekend.
he use to took lot of picture of me, moment when I laugh, moment when I’m playing, moment when I’m running around with mum....
He uses those photos he took to keep the memory of my childhood.

Now, when I am growing up older, he becomes a friend also a teacher for me.

I had lot of hard time while I’m overseas, he took me though all hardness and gives me confident~
he use to tell me, hey girl, don't worry, me and you mum are always here for you, if you feel too tired, then come back home, me and your mum are here, at home waiting for you.
(Dam~ tears falling)

He tried everything he could to give mum and me a more comfortable life, and he never told me how hard he has been though.


I never forget last year, I asked dad a new camera for my 20th birthday, and told him Joyce will back to china so if he could send it to her, she will bring it to me. Dad said ok. However, what I never thought was dad was worried the safety and timing if he send it by mail, so he decide to go to Shang Hai (my home is in Zheng Zhou, where is 2 to 3 hours by airplane to Shang Hai) and give it to Joyce. however, he was busy at the moment, so he took a flight very early in the morning, arrive in Shang Hai around 9, and went to Joyce's home, give it to her, stay in Shang Hai for another 3 hours than fly back home because he still have a meeting in the afternoon.

I don't know what to say, really, soooo touched by my dad, after woods, he told me he just want me receive my 20th birthday gift on time....

I always feel lucky because I was bone in my family and have a dad like this.

Thank you dad!!

Thank you for loving me so much
Thank you for giving me so much
Thank you for always be my side
Thank you for everything

Mao Mao

He is a friend of me for 15 years
He’s a kind of friend that I don't always hung out with but who had place in my life, in my hart
He is the one that I could talk about everything with
He is the one who always look after me
He is my best friend

we know each other since year one, we were site next to each other for quite a few years, we were in the same class from year 1 to year 9, from year 10 to year 11, we were in the same high school, then I came to Sydney, he went to Melbourne...

I couldn't remember when did we become friend, no particular sing shows when exactly our friendship begins ~ ^^ may be because we know each other for toooooo long? Maybe because we have soooooo much in common? and maybe just because astrologically we match~ haha^^ who cares, we friend~


We haven’t see each other for about 2 years~

He came to Sydney at the 22ed of December 2006, we had so much fun during the Christmas and the New Year, he back to Melbourne last night.

I thought I would be ok about his leveling, I really thought I would be ok, but...
Still, tear drops ...

Feels like my family member's leaving...suddenly felt lonely...

Yes~ I think, after soo many years, he's become a kind of family member of mine~

Em~ a bit upside

Marie Antoinette

the film was about the legendary of the teenage queen Marie Antoinette, who is perhaps best remembered for her legendary (and, some modern historians say, exaggerated) excesses, and for her death.

What made me very interested about this film is the costume and shoes~ so beautiful. So fancy, so... Hope my English is batter so I could describe more:P also , the make was popular and be involved in lot of medians, says that "create Kirsten Dunst's delicate beauty as the young French queen Marie Antoinette. Team with fresh floral such as roses, violets, lilac and lily for an intoxicating bouquet, and add a beauty sport here and there for authentic Rococo charm. Power-up, recline in your boudoir among ribbons and bows, and pucker-up."

ohhh~ don't know what to say, everything appears in the film was to beautiful, the views, the cakes, the costumes, the make-up and of cause the beauty ^^ I enjoyed ~

confuse.....

I talked to my dad on the internet for 2 hours about relationships. Heard 2 bad relationship in one day does some how make me feels a bit lose~

How could we still love a man if he thinks that sex and love is really two separate things?

of course I didn't ask my dad this question ^__^''hhhh but, I don't think I have a answer... well not yet :P
I felt it's a bit like cheat and less respect for the partner.
I mean, relationship should based on trust, if a gay had sex with other woman and coming back say to you "baby, I love you" do you still believe it? It’s hard for me though~~

May be I was too extreme~ but there is such thing that is hard for a female to forgive and forgotten.

Another thing which bothers me was that I don't understand why someone could go out with a guy/ girl because they just want goes out with someone. (Without love?)

according to mother of my friend, she says "the generation who were born after the 80's in china were mostly the only child in the family, so most of them are only wish to receive love from others and kind of lost the ability of 'give', they (she's talking about my generation :P) just stand there and waiting for someone to love them and don't even think about to love others" .......
Well~ she doesn’t mean the whole generation but what she says was the fact for lot of us.... painful....

I just thought that may be been overseas is kind of hard~ not hard to live in another country, it just~ to be away family would makes people feel lonely. So people would wants to have a partner (you know, some one who could be more close then friend) to keep there company. It is ok, but some of them just go out or even move to live with someone that they meet 2 days ago they don't know much about. This is totally different with fall in love at the first sight, it just that they feel lonely....

Don’t know, don't know, don't know....don't understand this ~~

Dad told me don't be afreid of love, don't let others influences me~

"just floolwing your hart!" he told me ~

em~~ i will !

sorry ~ this is very messy coz my mind is messy-___-' o

-________________-''

A bad luck week……
Seems that every time when I’m busy, then there will be some strange thing happens.

I remember last semester, almost the end of that semester, assessments were getting heavier and I was planning for my 20th birthday party, then there were things like “an important lesson which I can’t be late, I weak up extreme early that morning, but some how, the train will be 1 hour late, I went to the bus stop, but the bus was 15 min late already, I then going to get a taxi but I can’t see any on the street, normally, there were bunch of them on the street, however, on that day, even I called to book a taxi, the phone was always busy~~~~
I was laughing at myself, because things like that was soooo strange and I don’t believe anyone else would have the same thing ever happen to them^^ --- both train and bus were extreme late, and there were on taxi on the street and were not be able to book one~~ ha
Two days later,I walked into a flasher on my way home, at 6 pm in the afternoon. I was too scared and could only screaming and run away from him~ 6 pm? Later on when I thought about it I felt how would a flasher be on the street at 6pm in the afternoon? Isn’t that too early for them??.........


Come back to the present, another semester, but even busier then ever before. For all the hard work I done, I went shopping just to spoil myself. But, the beautiful day ended with lost two new cloth which I bought hour ago, and my birthday gift bracelet run away from me…. and my new USB …….

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ tired -___________-‘

YING

Another Christmas is coming...
I remember last year when I went home, before the Chinese New Year, we have to do cleaning to welcome the coming New Year. Then, I found a nice little bag.
There was a hat in side, a pink hat made by knitting wool. It was a Christmas gift for YING, which I bought 3 years ago, but somehow she would never receive it.

We met when we were year 10, and we use to play volleyball together and our team use to fight together against other teams. We were always win . I remember we had so much fun, perhaps moments i would never forget my whole life.

There were 6 of us in our team. We were sooo trust each other, and I remember every time when I'm standing in the ball field with 5 of my teammate, I'm always felt confident. No matter is to serve a ball or catch it, I was so confident because I know, if I let slip, one of them will always got it. It was the day YING did not turn up. She called one of us said she was sick, and she told us that she trust us and she knows we gonna win. However, it was that day, the first time we lost.

She never back....

Teacher told us that she wasn't feel well and will stay at home for a while, he said it wouldn't be a good idea for us to visit her because it was batter for her to rest. However, her best friend LU told us she wasn't just not well, she had leukemia. She also said that YING's presents don't want every one know about it, so we kept this only between 5 of our team members.

Each one of us tried very hard during the whole match season. We don't want lost a single match. we all know how bad leukemia could be, so we don't want YING have any disappointment.

Nov 21st, 2002. By the time we began to fight for the championship, YING still not shows up . We lost ... we lost the last game...
After the match we didn't go back to the class, we sit in the dark, crying... not for ourselves. We felt sorry for YING. Every time before the game she would ask LU to tell us she trust us and she always believe we would win. ya~ we were such a strong team, we were so disspointed because we only lost 2 matches during the whole season, but, it include the last match, we lost the the championship match....

After we were tired of crying, we told each we will win for next year, we will wait until she back....

She still didn't come to school, and it was almost Christmas…
I went shopping and saw this pink hat, I bought it because LU said she was having chemotherapy. i know from those drama I watched that she will lost her hair after that chemotherapy, and I thought she might need it...

Somehow, I didn't get to give her the gift, a week before Christmas that year, dad told me he will send me study overseas, so there was too much things has to be done.
I didn’t know that I would never see her again...

April 30th, 2003. Last day i went to school, because I was leaving on the 2ed of March to Sydney. LU told me YING was no longer living in the same world with us, she left on the 4th of April....







Sometimes I just felt God is so not fair, YING was such a nice girl, she was beautiful, and was good at almost everything, studies, sports and so on. Why God took her life away......

we never realize someone was so important to us until they gone....
and i never thought my friend would left me to another place in such young age...
so cherish everyone who's aroung you ...

I carry your hart with me , I carry it in my hart...

I carry your hart with me

I carry it in my hart

Iam with out it

Anywhere I go, you go, my dear

and whatever is done by only me

Is your doing, my dear

I fear no fate

For you are my fate, my sweet

I want no world

for beautiful you are my world

my thue

Here is the deppest screct no one knows

Here is the root of the root

and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life

which grows higher then the soul can hope

or mind can hide

I the wonder that's keeping the starts apart

I carry your heart

I carry it in my heart

____ E. E. Cumming

" I carry your hart, i carry it in my hart"

becouse of those hatrs i'm carrying in my hart

becouse of them

i'll no longer be alone

i'll no longer be afraid